2105. What a year. Some things have changed. others, not at all. People around me have changed. Actually no. I feel like using the word "changed", seems negative. The word evolved, or progressed seems more appropriate. I haven't seen many negative changes in the people I am close with. I believe that I have become a much more open minded and accepting person. And for that I'm extremely proud of myself. I've also come to terms with things around me and about myself, that I'm sure 2 years ago I wouldn't even think about. If I could go back in time to my grade 7 , or even grade 8 self and I told myself what I would be like, I'd never believe it. Never have I thought this is how my life would be. I've changed so, so much.
I'm not entirely sure what to say about 2015. A lot of it has been a personal journey. I won't go into detail, but the journey wasn't as smooth as I had hoped. I wasn't expecting it to be, obviously. This is life, it's never a smooth ride.
It started out pretty well. I was happy, doing well in school.
But around the summertime it was pretty bumpy. Then the road smoothed out a bit. Then it got bumpy again when grade 10 started. I started the school year fairly well, I studied hard and did things after school to make it easier in class the next day But a couple months in, I started losing motivation. Motivation for anything. School work, helping around the house, even my own hobbies. I have a keyboard in my room which I love playing, but now I'd look at it, and solely dismiss it.
I didn't want to be like that. I wanted motivation and willpower. I wanted to do good in school, I wanted to play with my dog and do things I loved, but I couldn't. It was hard for me. The most exciting part of my day became going to sleep. But that shouldn't be it. I should be enjoying life more when I'm awake and alive, not when I'm unconscious.
I've been working hard at getting motivated. Instead of doing the same routine everyday, I'm trying to change it. I feel like the routine has taken out any excitement or enrichment that I had in my life before.
2016, I think, will be the year for me to get back on my feet again. I have hope for 2016, and if I'm lucky, it won't let me down.
I'm not entirely sure what to say about 2015. A lot of it has been a personal journey. I won't go into detail, but the journey wasn't as smooth as I had hoped. I wasn't expecting it to be, obviously. This is life, it's never a smooth ride.
It started out pretty well. I was happy, doing well in school.
But around the summertime it was pretty bumpy. Then the road smoothed out a bit. Then it got bumpy again when grade 10 started. I started the school year fairly well, I studied hard and did things after school to make it easier in class the next day But a couple months in, I started losing motivation. Motivation for anything. School work, helping around the house, even my own hobbies. I have a keyboard in my room which I love playing, but now I'd look at it, and solely dismiss it.
I didn't want to be like that. I wanted motivation and willpower. I wanted to do good in school, I wanted to play with my dog and do things I loved, but I couldn't. It was hard for me. The most exciting part of my day became going to sleep. But that shouldn't be it. I should be enjoying life more when I'm awake and alive, not when I'm unconscious.
I've been working hard at getting motivated. Instead of doing the same routine everyday, I'm trying to change it. I feel like the routine has taken out any excitement or enrichment that I had in my life before.
2016, I think, will be the year for me to get back on my feet again. I have hope for 2016, and if I'm lucky, it won't let me down.